Thursday, October 29, 2009

drops like stars

i recently gave a book report of rob bell's new book, drops like stars. here's my handout that i passed out.

Matt Cavanaugh

Book Review of Drops Like Stars by Rob Bell

Drops Like Stars is a book that deals, primarily, with human nature and how humans naturally construct paradigms. As described in this text, we can become calloused to the awe, beauty, and spiritual power of our world, due to the pressures of our surroundings, but we can also recapitulate said beauty. Bell suggests a six-tiered process for redemption: disruption, honesty, ache, solidarity, elimination, and failure.

The art of disruption

Factors encountered on a daily basis, such as time and location are known as insulators; they build a framework in which a person can view the world, view that event or object or person, or view something about themselves.

“If we went to the ballet and everybody in the audience was wearing snorkels or the musicians were all red-haired banjo players with no teeth or instead of being handed a program, we were handed a squirrel, we would immediately begin asking, “What is this?” But our real question would be, “Where is this? Where do we put this? How do we place it? Because our standard reference points – the usual insulators – wouldn’t be there to guide us” (28).

Bell begs the question, “What if we could break away from our insulators and begin to imagine a new tomorrow, something beyond our expectations or imaginations?”

The art of honesty

A major way in which our insulators are eradicated is through pain. Pain and suffering allow us to be completely humbled and forced to a new degree of honesty.

“The writer Frederick Buechner remembers a time in his life when he was a ‘twenty-seven-year-old bachelor.’ ‘[I was] trying to write a novel, which for one reason or another refused to come to life for me, partly, I suspect, because I was trying too hard and hadn’t learned yet the importance of letting the empty place inside of me open up.’ And so we’re polite and we play by the rules and when asked how we are, we answer, ‘I’m fine, thank you,’ just like we’re supposed to. And then we suffer. There’s a disruption and our boxes get smashed and the insulators are removed and the pretense is shattered and the empty place inside of us opens up” (44).

The art of ache –and The art of solidarity –

Bell furthers this concept into a communal concept. He claims that suffering is a common thread, an omnipresent undercurrent of everything – and it has the power to do wonderful, transformative things.

“Imagine being at a public event like a movie or game or play or religious service and before it starts, someone says to the crowd, ‘Please stand if you’ve been affected by cancer.’ What would you feel? Compassion? Empathy? Solidarity? Connection? Love? A setting of strangers and yet you mention cancer- a specific suffering – and there’s instantly a bond. If someone said, ‘Please stand…if you’ve been to Hawaii…’ or ‘Please stand…if you’ve had to fire your interior decorator…’ or ‘Please stand…if you drive a station wagon,’ it just wouldn’t have the same effect, would it? But suffering, suffering unites” (60-63).

The concept of the cross also is brought into this discussion. Bell postulates that Christians, especially earlier Christians, were proud to be represented by the cross, because it is proof of a God who suffers, just like we do.

The art of elimination –

In order to understand best who we are individually, Bell suggests we endure the suffering in order to expose our inner-selves, void of our layers of conditioned masks. One example he uses involves bars of soap. He gave bars of soap to his sculpture friends, who, in turn, cut away pieces of the soap to reveal sculptures of beauty.

“And yet these sculptures were in those bars the whole time. All these sculptors really did was remove. Sculptors shape and form and rearrange, but at the most basic level, they take away. And there is an extraordinary, beautiful art to knowing what to take away” (88).

Bell also personalizes this analogy:

“[Suffering] compels us to eliminate the unnecessary, the trivial, the superficial. There is greatness in you. Courage. Desire. Integrity. Virtue. Compassion. Dignity. Loyalty. Love. It’s all in there – somewhere. And sometimes it takes suffering to get at it. It’s in there.” (91)

The art of failure

A compelling paradox is presented, just after this part of the book. Bell focuses on the idea of possession: it is possible to possess something but not own it, and, conversely, it is possible to own something but not possess it. Essentially, people can buy into the paradigm of what the world at large deems “necessary for life” but never really be alive. Examples of this are social prominence and material wealth. However, when people are able to understand and appreciate the daily gifts at hand, a fascinating thing happens, where the concept of wealth becomes a relative, subjective entity, versus a quantitative, finite commodity.

The overall purpose of this book is to redefine our perspectives that we see the world through. Rob Bell closes Drops Like Stars with this:

“Several years ago, my three-year-old nephew and I were standing in front of a large window, watching it rain. He started saying, ‘stars, stars, stars.’ I turned to my sister-in-law and asked, ‘why does he keep repeating ‘stars, stars, stars?’ She answered, ‘He thinks that when raindrops hit the ground, for a split second they look like stars.’ I’d never seen it that way. May you see drops like stars” (130-133).

Bell, Rob. Drops Like Stars. Grand Rapids, MI: Zondervan, 2009.

Monday, October 26, 2009

u2 sucks

i made a comment on my facebook status of how u2 was good in the 80's but really hasn't done much to innovate music since. you would have thought i called the pope a nazi or something! i am amazed at the voracity in people's responses, yet the lack of substantiation people can provide for rebutting this view. i am not going to pretend to own all of the right answers to everything, but when u2 is long and gone, what songs are we going to remember? "One" or "Lemon?" "With or Without You" or "Sometimes You Can't Make it On Your Own?" "Pride (In the Name of Love)" or...or.... ???
On top of that, the strange Christian super-protection of u2 is just amazing to me. they're not heathens, they're not even anti-Christian, per se... but when did they become elevated to some musical form of angels or something? im really in the dark here and quite shocked at peoples' reactions to my comment.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

recording

i've been recording tons.

the sound is way different. lots of electronic beats, dance type stuff almost, with only electric guitar (no acoustic). the tentative track list of songs so far:

september
heavy
82 + sunny
13
moving on

its cool to be back up and running with music again.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

freakin awesome dance song

so embedding has been disabled...but check this out. it makes me move.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

something funny for once

i've been so dang serious on here lately. so i decided to post something funny. actually i can't figure out images on blogger so here is a link to my facebook story. i figure any readers on here are my fbook friends. enjoy.

my dirt recycling story

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

music

i feel so inspired to write music right now. like...its just welling up inside me. and i think i am becoming a much better musician too. thing is... no time. between working too much, church, taking a full load of classes, working out too much, doctor appointments, etc... it is SO hard to find time to write music. :-( hopefully i can start that up soon.

in fact, lately, i feel like i'm figuring a lot out.

* i feel like i'm relearning what it means to live, to interact with people, and to engage with the society around me.

* i feel more confident in my own skin. i have so many dang body issues and insecurities that i fight through. however, last week i realized that i'm actually becoming really well conditioned and fairly strong. all of a sudden, i have biceps, i can see my abs, veins are making themselves known in my arms, and my quads are much more pronounced. when did this happen? this is really cool. i wouldn't say i'm super confident but i noticed that and, well... all i've ever done is punish myself for my physicality. for once, i feel like i'm not ugly enough to make babies cry.

* i feel like i'm learning how to believe that people around me might actually love me and might desire my trust. not everyone... but there are at least a few. again, this is major for me. i struggle with trusting because so many people i've trusted have hurt me, left me, or used me. but i'm relearning how to trust and to accept the fact that i may actually have some qualities that people appreciate; i might actually have value in other peoples' eyes.

nothing in my life is perfect. i wouldn't even say its close to good necessarily. however, it is improved from where i was yesterday, a week ago, a month ago. somehow things are changing and life feels almost worth living.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

real life heroes

for some reason in this world, there just aren't a lot of known real life heroes who are doing extraordinary things, outside of their daily routines. note: this is parents, police men, etc... aside.

however, one of my real life heroes has once again shown his extraordinary commitment to God and the world is so much better for it.

tim hoekstra was the chaplain at my college for the final 2 years i attended trinity. he provided an amazing example of commitment to the Kingdom of God - in the midst of resistant powers. Tim's heart was/is highly motivated towards racial reconciliation. At a mostly dutch college...well...you can understand why having a black or hispanic speaker would ruffle feathers. actually, no, you probably can't and i can't and tim certainly couldn't... but he made sure that the fallen subset of morale and rules around that campus was challenged constantly. he left that position in 2007.

onto today... tim has been hard at work, as a pastor (unpaid), as a missionary, and as an advocate. today, tim ran 50 miles, at 50 years old, and managed to raise about $50k to help with the water crisis in africa and to work with inner city youth in Chicago. let me repeat that. tim ran 50 miles. he started at 1:30am... he was escorted by police to the beginning of the chicago marathon (after 23.8 miles) and ran the marathon (26.2).

if that isn't a superhero, i don't know what is. tim is a hero to me and has been the best mentor a person could ever ask for.

http://www.firstgiving.com/timhoekstra50miler

Friday, October 9, 2009

randomness

so here's some random going on's in my life.


1. bought the new relient k cd today. that's right. that relient k. it's actually really beautiful. it's all about how matt thiessen's fiance left him. but its beautiful. check it.

2. i'm working lots, especially coming up... tomorrow through thursday, straight. like 30 hours. couple that with church, 3 classes, doctor appt's and exercise. super busy. after next week i hope things open up a bit.

3. i got my masters project preliminarily approved! this is so exciting! i'm going to work on a video/song about how the whole world is spiritual if we can open our eyes to see it. i'm way stoked.

4. i'm probably going to the sundance movie festival this january!

5. i'm getting better and better at rock climbing! this might sound insignificant to you, the reader, but to me it feels great.

6. i'm still feeling pretty good. i've had a few things bring me down the last couple days but i'm doing my best to stay afloat.

7. seriously, this relient k cd rules.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

everything has changed

im not sure why but things feel different. some type of switch flipped. this is so weird. but things actually feel good. weird.