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lately i've uncharacteristically emotional. a lot. before a month or so ago, i dont think id cried for years. yet... things have changed.

i went bouldering today and it was a blast. it was a good day. actually one of the best days ive had in a long time, and damnit i needed it so badly. but on the way home, i randomly threw relient k on on my ipod. relient k are one of those bands that one needs to be in the mood to listen to. their lyrics and music have progressed so much since marilyn manson ate their girlfriend. but i put on "let it all out" and actually listened to the words and was so touched. if there is one song that personifies how i feel right now, its this one. and ill admit to shedding a lot of tears to it, cuz real men do cry.

"Let It All Out"

Let it all out, get it all out
rip it out remove it
don't be alarmed when the wound begins to bleed

cause we're so scared to find out what this life's all about
so scared we're going to lose it
not knowing all along that's exactly what we need

and today I will trust you with the confidence of a man who's never known defeat
but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did I will stare at you in disbelief
oh, inconsistent me crying out for consistency

and you said I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember
the end will justify the pain it took to get us there

and I'll let it be known at times I have shown signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me there is strength

and you promise me that you believe in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me there is strength

and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
and I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me

reach out to me, make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you, for you

and I know you know you touched my life
when you touched my heavy heart and made it light